The Absurdity Of Today's Tomorrow!

Dear blog

I know I am landing here after a really long spell... It's been a while, may be more than just a while since I last made my presence felt in this virtual world of mine... But, honestly, I would want to admit that I was busy... I was busy doing absolutely 'nothing'... and surprisingly I don't regret that! I had always been busy working constructively... and arguably for the first time ever, I enjoyed being more of a useless! It was a pleasant change... I did have moments when the urge to share through my tit-bits appeared necessary (though not sufficient!) to feel alive, but then I just let it be! To be more elaborative, I would say I found it difficult to put some 'newer' and 'unknown' feelings in words... I could not find the right words for the right 'things' at the right time... and I wonder if they can ever be... But after all said and done, I feel I will only keep completing myself if I keep living through my words... So, here it goes... about an old breeze... which is missing on the new roads promising newer breezes... and about choices I could never make...!

The Absurdity Of Today's Tomorrow!

Plugging in deafening music,
I slept, singing along as if I've moved on!
Waking up uncomfortably on a dizzy morning,
With ear-phones under me, still singing on!

Though I loved loving life then,
I'm shouting now that I'm missing it no more!
Putting on dresses, wearing on masks,
I'm still wondering who am I living for!

Talking to someone through the mirror,
I tried figuring out if things did fumble up!
Impossible dreams were what I kept chasing,
Not believing the possibility of impossibilities!

Tik-tok, tik-tok and yet another tik-tok
Reminded me that life minus me is moving on!
But letting it go just wasn't an option,
So, I started dreaming incredibly more!

Winning things might be good,
But losing a single someone is bad indeed!
Battlefield was where I found myself in,
And perhaps losing there is just a moment away...

Fight on, Move on and hence Live on...

Life's Worth It!

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Life has finally become cheerful. A new breeze made it all the more refreshing and fragrant for me...! I feel like smiling these days..thinking of all those lovely things which happened and all the lovely things which will hopefully happen...! I don't know what exactly is it about life that has turned me on.. but whatever it is, I am immensely grateful and indebted to it... So, here goes another poem of mine... about things I like to think about during the nightfall... about things I cherish the most... about things which are more than just things for me, from now on...
  
                                                    

So many phone calls to be answered;
So many visitors to be honoured;
So many meetings to be attended;
But sometimes...
It's just about calling  up for no reason
And listening the voice you love...
And life becomes worth it...!

So many books to be read;
So many assignments to be written;
So many newspaper clippings to be clipped and filed;
But sometimes...
It's just about sitting back
And reading the 'letter' that you love...
And life becomes worth it...!

So many dress trials to be accomplished;
So many old dresses to be discarded;
So many shopping deadlines to be met;
But sometimes...
It's just about letting your hair down
And lying down in the ugliest shorts you love...!
And life becomes worth it....! 

So many pending gifts to be wrapped and sent;
So many 'Thank-you' notes to be delivered;
So many good wishes to be exchanged;
But sometimes...
It's just about bothering to share
And licking a melt chocolate that you love...!
And life becomes worth it...!

So many challenges to be accepted;
So many fears to be understood;
So many lessons yet to be learned; 
But sometimes...
It's about crossing the worlds
Just to see the smile you love...!
And life becomes worth it...! 

In fact, it's just ALL about 
What you love and live for...

And it's more than just 'sometimes'... 
As life is worth it....!

Fight on, Move on and hence Live on... 

A PHASE OF LIFE

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Living in the times what someone very special to me call a PHASE of life, which will hopefully end very soon, I am trying to figure out what have I became by now...! Things have changed beyond recognition. I fail to understand what is 'good' for me and what isn't. I may play the blame game, but that REALLY sounds immature and wrong. It's my life and I must learn to respect whatever it can offer me. At this note, I share my next poem about the abstractness of my existence which I think is STILL incomplete... but I have no intentions to complete it either...!

A not-so-known breeze

Kisses My soul;

Unheard footsteps

Sound louder each moment...

An apparently newer journey

On these old roads;

Blending a newer life

In this old soul...

New faces, new lives

Jingling with that of mine;

There are smiles, there are frowns

And then there are no smiles, only frowns...

It might be right to cry

But it's definitely wrong to smile;

Doesn't matter if rejected or selected

As there is always someone to judge you there...

Fight on, Move on and hence Live on...

It's A Boy-Girl Thing !

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Recently, I witnessed certain unexplained actions and reactions. I am yet to figure out if they can be justified or not, but these implications of life certainly drove me crazy! I really feel for all those who went through these circumstances. Also, I admit that I tried to be diplomatic with the words while I 'define' these 'terms' for them! Very fortunately, there have been no casualties as of yet! So, here goes the tale:

He prompts a 'Hi' first

As he's quite frank and knows socializing;

She returns a 'Hello'

Coz she's trying to spell a dirty charm;

After all, he's a boy and she's a girl!

He dares to lie, one fine day

As it's a part of his growing up;

She tries to make the truth acceptable

Coz she is losing her 'values';

After all, he's a boy and she's a girl!

He sports a messy beard

And suddenly, he's mysteriously smart;

She messed herself up with unknown responsibilities

And there she becomes freakishly incompetent;

After all, he's a boy and she's a girl!

He gets a trendy, new mobile

As he's responsible enough;

She inherits an old, boring one

So that 'they' can keep a check;

After all, he's a boy and she's a girl!

He gets late by big-four hours

Understandingly, he must've been busy;

She leaves the doorstep with a deadline

As it's the need of the hour;

After all, he's a boy and she's a girl!

He ridicules these facts

Coz he never saw it and will never do;

She crams the rules of the game well

As 'they' suggested it's the best thing for her;

After all, he's a boy and she's NOT!

Fight on, Move on and hence Live on ...

To My Darling, With Love!

Dear blog

I am having a bad time, bad nights and even worse days! Life has lost its charm for me... and it might never regain it! Amidst all my pain, I had started causing pain too... I felt like hurting others for life is hurting me... I was always afraid of the day when I would be a 'lesser me'... and I hate to admit that I AM A 'LESSER ME' these days. But there's still one darling of mine who smiled at me beautifully and for some reason, I forgot my misery... for a short moment, I wanted to live life again... The following poem is nothing but the essence of being with that angel :

When I hated trying

And eventually, not trying;

When I wanted to envy

Every ray of your light;

I heard you whistling around

Sounding incredibly stupid but adorable;

And then You cuddled me like a spring breeze

All I mustered was a scattered smile...

When I wanted to be disgraceful

And really acted like one;

When I painted my nails black

And smiled wickedly at life;

I saw you jumping besides

Showing how happy you were to be happy;

And then you offered me a share of your cake

All I managed was a plain "Yummy, Wow!"...

I was ashamed to be incomplete,

You smiled gratefully at others completing you!

I was desperate to be a bad girl,

You celebrated being a girl all through!

I preferred the dark hours of the dusk,

You arranged for disco lights to brighten it up!

I cried more when You saw my tears,

You threw a party as you shared the secret!

I told you that I have a hard life,

Knowing that it would have been harder without you!

You showed me how easy things were,

And with a smile, how easier things could be...

Fight on, Move on and hence Live on...